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33 Weeks With Daphne Grace

August 21, 2019

How far along? 33 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  small pineapple

Total weight gain: 10 lbs

Baby Development: DG is working on hardening her bones to help support her in the outside world! She is keeping her eyes open during her wake time in there and practicing looking around her! Other than that, she’s just getting fatter and fatter!

Movement: Movement this week is BIG. I feel her super low and she gets the hiccups twice a day at least! She reacts to my voice when I sing WJ to sleep and it’s the most beautiful feeling. She dances when I drink something cold and doesn’t wake up until about 11 am!

Food cravings: I’m still majorly craving drinks with bubbles.

Miss Anything?  I miss being able to do dishes without having to turn sideways haha. The belly is reeeeeeeally starting to hinder my everyday activities. I also miss being able to reach above the stove without turning the oven on!

Symptoms:  I’m now peeing ever 30 minutes, she is SO low! I’ve got the pregnant waddle down to an art and it takes me a good minute to get off the couch. Heartburn is bad at night so, I’m sleeping propped up. I’m having Braxton Hicks contractions everyday now and it makes me nervous that labor might be closer than I think.

Mood?  NESTING. My sister is coming in town next week and I’m so busy prepping for her to be her and for WJ’s first birthday party! I constantly want to be cleaning and tidying the house. I’m also super emotional. Everything that Winifred does makes me cry in the happiest of ways.

Winifred Update: She is growing LEAPS AND BOUNDS every single day. She is loving animals and is obsessed with her farm animal books. She’s mastered the duck, cow, dog, sheep sound! When she hears the dogs outside, she tries to bark back! Winnie has also started copying everything we do! She copies our motions and our tones when we talk to one another. She especially loves to copy our laughs and it makes me MELT. She is getting so brave and is standing on her own! She can get up by herself and stand for about 5 seconds independently. She gets so proud after she falls and it makes me happy to see her proud of herself. She is scooting around furniture and exploring all over the house. She got really brave and stepped away from the coffee table, slipped and gave her self a nasty bruise on her cheek. Mom guilt extreme. We got her a baby doll and she is obsessed. She pats it on the back and tries to share her Paci with it! I can’t wait to see her be a big sister.

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32 Weeks With Daphne Grace

August 21, 2019

How far along? 32 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  Cantaloupe

Total weight gain: 9lbs

Baby Development: As of now, Daphne Grace is pretty much focused on getting cute and fat! Her senses are being fine-tuned and her lungs are working on getting strong enough to breath on the outside! I’m assuming/hoping she’s growing lots of hair because mama has heartburn! If all goes according to plan, she should be migrating lower in my belly to get ready for her birth.

Movement Daphne Grace is trying to escape out of my belly button, I swear. She is now constantly moving, I have no idea when she sleeps. I also now know the feeling other moms talk about when baby is in their ribs because, WOW, I feel her between my ribs. She is also sitting pretty on my lungs, I run out of breath just talking. Hoping she drops just a tad so I can breathe.

Food cravings: Drinks with bubbles. I’ve been drinking La Croix like it’s my job, but nothing quite quenches the bubble craving like a large Ocean Water from Sonic.

Miss Anything?  seeing my feet.

Symptoms:  Heartburn is still alive and well in my belly. I’ve lessened my coffee intake and am eating WAY less salt. That has seemed to help the heartburn big time. I’m also having really weird nightmares! Like terrifying nightmares of my babies getting hurt and its AWFUL!! I’m ready for that to go away. I’m also having Braxton-Hicks way more frequently. I don’t remember having them with Winifred, so this is a really new feeling.

Wedding rings on or off?  Rocking the silicone ring, proudly.

Mood?  Exhausted. I can’t get enough sleep.

Winifred Update: We not have two teeth! WHOOOO HOOOOO! Winnie J is rocking her milestones and development without much help from us. She is crawling all over the entire house and exploring anything she can. She’s obsessed with books, in particular, a farm animal book! She can Moo, quack, whooo whooo, and bark like a dog! Every time the dogs bark outside, she barks back! She has also become quite the showman. If she does something to make us laugh, she’ll do it over and over looking for our reaction. She has really started noticing music and rhythms. She’ll dance or wave her hands to any music she hears! Winnie J is quite the organizer these days. She’ll sort things by color, or want to choose two toys that are similar to take with her. If she is done with a particular part of a meal, she will put that food in the cup holder so it isn’t in her way. She been Miss Independent this week too, playing by herself. She’ll crawl into her room and shut the door! I’ll stand out there and just hear here playing with her books or yelling with her stuffed animals. It makes my heart so happy to have her asserting her independence! She got a big girl car seat and helped Dad work on her big girl room! We have a little assistant on our hands.

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31 Weeks With Daphne Grace

August 21, 2019

How far along? 31 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  Small otter, Romaine Lettuce,

Total weight gain: 7.5 lbs

Baby Development: Daphne Grace is still packing on the pounds and growing like crazy! Her senses are almost fully developed and she can hear everything going on around her. Her eyesight is still developing, so everything is a giant blur right now. The bones of her skull are solidifying to prepare for birth. I can’t wait for my little cone head. Her bones are continuing to steal my calcium to harden and get ready for the outside world.

Movement:  Daphne Grace had hiccups for the first time this week! That’s my favorite baby movements. She loves when Winnie is around and making noises, she moves the most then. It makes my heart so happy. I’m praying that the movements I’m feeling are movements of a baby who is head down!

Food cravings: Nothing really this week! My chocolate cravings have subsided, thank goodness.

Miss Anything?  Being able to stand up from the couch in less than 30 seconds.

Symptoms:  Heartburn. I’ve never had heartburn in my life and here it is, every night as I fall asleep. It’s not too bad and I can usually get back to sleep, but I have to sleep propped up. That is an interesting endeavor. The lower back pain is still lingering but I’m pretty much used to that as my new normal. Leaky breasts this week, too! With WJ I got them at 25 weeks, so I’m happy that symptom was delayed. I can feel my hips loosening and my joints are more wobbly. Lots of changes this week as my body starts prepping! Still a long while until she is here!

Wedding rings on or off?  Sadly, they are off. I don’t know if it’s this West Texas heat or what but my hands are swollen by about 2 in the afternoon. So, I just don’t bother with them anymore. My silicone wedding ring will do just fine for the next 9 weeks.

Mood?  Determined. We started Winnie J’s room remodel and I am PUMPED! I just might spend most of my time in there! The renovation got my organization juices flowing and I’m prepping for Daphne Grace’s arrival and Winnie J’s first birthday party! I’m ready to switch all of Winnie J’s stuff to her new room and re”baby” the nursery.

Winifred Update: SHE HAS A TOOTH! I REPEAT, SHE HAS A TOOTH! It’s the cutest little thing and I can’t wait for her to get more. She is officially OVER purees and wants to eat what we’re eating, which is quite convenient. She is determined to feed herself and is so proud of herself when she does! Winnie J started investigating other parts of the house this week and discovered the dog bowls. Her preferred spot to hang out is the dog bed and her favorite toy is Zeus’ tail! She continues to practice her standing skills and she can balance herself for a good 3 seconds before falling. She’ll crawl or climb over anything she can find. She also had her first Chick-Fil-A experience and she’s a TOTAL fan!

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30 Weeks With Daphne Grace

August 1, 2019

How far along? 30 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  Zuchinni,

Total weight gain: Still at 6lbs

Stretch marks? All the stretch marks, just across my belly. They’ve also come with these lovely purple dots that make me look like a character from Dr. Seuss. Some of them are painful, but I know it’ll be worth it in the end.

Baby Development: Daphne Grace is just getting fatter and fatter! She should be gaining about half a pound each week now. Her neck has full range of motion now and she is practicing turning her head. She is continuing to steal my protein to help her muscles functions properly! She is getting hiccups now as she practices breathing and swallowing. “They” say, babies at 30 weeks can now recognize mom’s voice and I hope that is true! Her Lanugo, layer of hair that keeps her warm, should be falling off this week.

Movement:  Daphne Grace is still kicking like crazy. This week, a few of her kicks stole my breath. She is sitting right on my lungs, making it really hard to take a deep breath. She gets shy when I try to let someone feel her kick. She’ll be kicking like crazy then stop as soon as I put their hand on my belly. I still can’t tell if she is in position or not. We’ll know at our 34 week ultrasound.

Food cravings: Nothing out of the ordinary. Still have to have something sweet before I go to sleep. Anything chocolate will do.

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach and being able to roll over in bed. This has become quite the task and is getting a little painful.

Symptoms:  My sciatic nerve is in constant pain. I don’t know if it’s from sitting on the floor with WJ all day. Nesting is in full swing and I’m cleaning or sleeping 24/7. I can’t go to sleep unless the house is tidy. I’m getting the urge to purge again and I LOVE this part! I love decluttering and organizing alllll the things.

Wedding rings on or off?  Still holding on.

Mood?  Either frustrated or elated. I mainly slip back and forth between those two. I get frustrated that I physically can’t do all the things I would like to as well as I would like to. I move slower than I’d like and that get super annoying. At the same time, I couldn’t be happier. Winifred is doing wonderful, Daphne is growing and kicking, Will is healthy, and life is good. It’s a confusing mix of emotions and I’m just sitting in it.

This Week: This week was B-A-N-A-N-A-S. WJ had so many play dates and we had so much to do! In an effort to get her sleeping better, I tried to get us out of the house as much as possible and keep us busy! I did a deep clean of the house and that was honestly the greatest thing ever. We got to go to Dallas this weekend and attend the most beautiful wedding. Karissa was my Texas Tech Orientation roommate and we ended up in the same Education block and becoming extremely close. It was an honor to see her marry the man of her dreams this weekend.

Winifred Update: We have quite the little organizer on our hands! Winnie J has learned to put things back where she got them or on top of things and she is obsessed. She will put all her toys in then out of a box or on top of the couch, then take them off. She likes having things all together, and it makes my heart happy. I thought Winnie J was mobile but BOY was I wrong. This girl is on the move! She is crawling all over the house and getting into everything she can find! She wants more than anything to be besties with the dogs but Layla runs away from her and Zeus is just nonreactive. Its tragic and adorable. She crawls into the dog bed and waits for them to snuggle with her. Winnie J had a stomach bug this week and it was heartbreaking. It’s hard to see your baby hurting and you can’t do anything to take it away. She bounced back after 24 hours and was her bouncy self once again. The “cold front” was good to us and we spend ample time outside reading books together. She has started to show preference for certain books. This week it was Brown Bear, Brown Bear and Chicka Chicka Boom Boom. She loves turning the pages and cuddling with her fluffy stuff while we read. I’ve never met a baby more obsessed with fluffy things.

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29 Weeks With Daphne Grace

August 1, 2019

How far along? 29 weeks
Baby is the size of a:  Cotton Tail Rabbit, Small Pineapple, Barbie Convertible

Total weight gain:  6Lbs total

Stretch marks? Yup. Any creams you could recommend would be awesome, folks. My stomach feels like it’s ripping open.

Baby Development: This week, Daphne Grace weighs in at almost 3lbs! She is packing on the fat and getting ready to enter the world. Her muscles and lungs are continuing to develop and mature as she practices breathing. She is pretty much at her birth length now!

Movement:  This girl is strong. I know I said that last week but WOW. She takes my breath away my breath. Fun fact: She moves the most when I’m holding Winnie J. When I’m rocking her to sleep at night or during playtime. Daphne Grace can’t wait to come and meet her sister!

Food cravings: The chocolate cravings are so real. Every night, I have one of those mug cake things and WOOOOOOOOOOW. Also, had the weirdest craving for frozen yogurt this week. Haven’t had that since college.

Miss Anything?  Weird, but I miss being able to do the dishes without turning sideways. My belly gets in the way! Takes a tool on your back after a while.

Symptoms:  the nesting has begun. Personally, I love this part of pregnancy. My house is super clean and I’m organizing everything I can see. This stage in the pregnancy with Winnie, I was nesting in my classroom and preparing form my long-term sub. This time around, I’m channeling all my energy into Winnie J’s room makeover!

Wedding rings on or off? Still on! Minimal swelling, which is a relief in this heat.

Mood?  This one changes day to day. One day I’m stressed/irritable; next I’m excited/productive, then exhausted/passive. Poor Will.

This Week: Anxiety hit this week HARD. The reality of what our lives will look like in a few months is scary. Financially, bringing home a new baby and me not working is going to be a new adventure for us. I’ve come to love budgeting though, and we’re a good team. We also realized that we have done NOTHING to prepare for Daphne Grace’s arrival. We decided to move Winnie J to her own room so we can have the nursery ready for DG. I also had a minor anxiety attack when I realized I was going to have to give birth again. That might sound weird given that I’ve been pregnant for 30 weeks now, but it’s true. I’m honestly terrified to give birth again. I haven’t had time to forget what birth means for my body and mind. So, I’ll be spending the next 10 weeks prepping my body and mind for the most peaceful birth this baby can have.

Winifred Update: STILL. NO. TEETH. This week with WJ was adorably frustrating (parenting in a nutshell). Since we got back from the beach, Winnie has been on a night time sleep strike or waking up at 5AM ready for the day. She is always in a good mood when she wakes up, so that makes it 10 times easier to not be the grumpiest parent of all time. Other than being sleep deprived, she is growing leaps and bounds. She is attempting to stand up on her own! She’s doing lots of “downward dog” pose to get herself ready to stand. She is scooting around on all the furniture and babbling NONSTOP. For someone so tiny, she has a lifetime of stories to tell us. She is FINALLY eating more solid food. She is no longer accepting purees and is dying to feed herself! This makes me so happy for her development and makes meal time incredibly messy! WINNIE J also got baptized this weekend! It was so emotional to her be welcomed into the Church. She loved having her Uncle Thomas and Aunt Christy in town for a couple of days. It’s always nice when family comes! We’ve decided to start moving WJ into a “big girl” room instead of the nursery so Daphne Grace can have the nursery when she’s ready. WJ was very interested in picking out her paint color.

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28 Weeks With Daphne Grace

July 17, 2019

How far along? 28 Weeks HELLOOOOOO THIRD TRIMESTER
Baby is the size of a:  Coconut, Small Roller-skate

Total weight gain:  staying steady at 5lbs only even with allllll the Peanut M&Ms

Stretch marks? Just a few more, I’ve surrendered them at this point.

Baby Development: Daphne Grace weighs about 2.5 lbs and will continue to gain weight quickly during the last trimester! Her adrenal glands are now producing their own hormones to signal mama to start producing milk! She is becoming less wrinkly as she packs on the fat. As she sleeps she dreams and even has REM cycles! I’m continually amazed at how God is weaving her together.

Movement:  I’m pretty sure I’m giving birth to the hulk. Daphne Grace is STRONG and is moving most of the day, especially after sunset. She is rolling around in there and seems to still be in the breech position if I’m feeling right. I’m anxious for my next sonogram to see if she is. Currently researching ways to rotate her.

Food cravings: It’s still chocolate haha.

Miss Anything?  I miss our families. We definitely got spoiled this past week, being surrounded by all our loved ones.

Symptoms:  Sciatic pain, peeing every 10 minutes, hard to breathe, swelling if I sit for too long, etc. I call it the third trimester PARTY.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on!

Mood?  Productive! I’m back on my cleaning schedule and scheduling play dates for Winnie J. Planning lots of blogs, too!

Positive Moments This Week: Will and I went through our finances to prepare for the arrival of Daphne Grace and the exiting of my paycheck. It’s an uncomfortable topic sometimes but it is necessary to discuss in a marriage. It makes us both feel better to have the exact idea of where we’re at and decide things together. It’s good for our relationship to be a team and I love being on his team.

Winifred Update: Oh, the cuddles I got this week. I’m soaking in my time with WJ before there is another little one to snuggle with. She plays by herself for a little, then comes back for a quick cuddle. Also, SHE IS CRAWLING ON HANDS AND KNEES AND TAKING SOLID FOODS! The week at the beach was so good for her. Her big cousins worked with her to crawl on her hands and knees! She cannot get enough books and fluffy things. We read the same 5 books allll day long and she loves it. She has recently attached herself to this tiny little lamb and its the most adorable thing.

 

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27 Weeks With Daphne Grace

July 17, 2019

 

How far along? 27 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  Head of Lettuce, Cauliflower

Total weight gain:  staying steady at 5lbs only.

Stretch marks? OH YES. They alllllll came out to play. It’s a really good thing that one pieces are back in style. I hope it stays that way.

Baby Development: Daphne Grace’s eyebrows and eyelashes are in full swing this week! Her brain is now beginning to show electrical activity and she’s on a sleeping schedule. She is a night owl and sleeps in. She reaches the second viability milestone this week, as her lungs are developed enough to survive in the outside world. Cochleae have developed in her ears, aiding in her hearing development.

Movement:  Daphne Grace’s movements became much more pronounced this week. Will got to finally feel her kick. I could make out an elbow every now and then. My belly looks like its doing the wave, especially at night!

Food cravings: CHOCOLATE. I’m pretty sure I ate an entire Costco sized bucket of Peanut M&Ms by myself at the beach.

Miss Anything?  Being able to stand up without making grunting noises like Serena Williams.

Symptoms:  Lots of sciatic pain this week. I think it was from all the siting on the floor and in the sand. Lots of stretching in my future.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on. Although, the heat and salt water definitely had me swelling.

Mood?  insanely grateful

Positive Moments This Week: I love that we got to see both sides of the family this week and Winnie J got to meet all her cousins! My parents put on a get together and the whole family came out! It was a blessing to be surrounded by so much love.

Winifred Update: Winnie J lived her best life here at the beach! She LOVES the water so much. If she had it her way, she’d swim off into the waves. The sand is her happy place and she loves when the water splashes her face. This is the first time she’s met her two cousins and she is in love! They are teaching her how to be a big kid. She’s learning how to share, play nice, and crawl on her hands a knees. I’m so grateful for this family time we’re getting! She is getting lots of sugar from Granny and Pop too!

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26 Weeks With Daphne Grace

July 17, 2019

How far along? 26 Weeks
Baby is the size of a:  VHS tape, acorn squash, zucchini

Total weight gain:  still only 5 lbs!

Stretch marks? Starting to develop more across the top of my belly. Winifred gave me some right at my belly button but Daphne Grace has gifted me with another layer right on top. Tiger stripes, right?

Baby Development: Daphne Grace has gained enough fat to be able to regulate her own body temperature! She is soaking in all of mama’s protein to keep growing that big ole brain. She is a busy bee in there. She is coughing, breathing, and even dreaming!

Movement:  Movement is getting stronger but I still can’t see it on the outside yet! She moves the most when I’m holding Winifred, which I’m just obsessed with.

Food cravings: Chocolate. I legit cannot go to bed without having SOMETHING chocolate. I’m not proud.

Miss Anything?  Being able to breath without a tiny human on my lungs.

Symptoms: It’s weird dream time, y’all! I actually enjoy this pregnancy symptom because the dreams are just so outrageous.  

Wedding rings on or off? Still on

Mood?  Anxious. I’m so ready to get out of Midland for a while!

Winifred Update: I’m now calling her Winifred the Giggler. She finds joy in the littlest thing and it makes my heart swell. She is pulling up on everything and scooting around all the furniture. It’s time to hide all the hazardous knick knacks. Her current favorite activity is pulling off all the DVDs and sliding them under the entertainment center. She is a book worm and will sit in my lap and read 5 or 6 books at a time. I love watching her brain grow with her personality.

Looking forward to:  THE BEACH! We are off to Houston/Galveston to spend some much-needed time away from Midland and with our families.

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Dad in the Delivery Room

June 21, 2019

My dad has always worked so hard to make sure that we got the most out of life, but he made darn sure that nothing was handed to us on a silver platter. He taught us to work  for things that we wanted and that the “easy way out” would get us no where. My parents gave us a place where we were free to make mistakes. When things went wrong, we knew we had a place to go, even if it mean facing very harsh realities. We knew we would be held accountable for our actions, but loved and supported while doing so.

I’ve leaned on both my parents my whole life. They’ve been there for every soccer game, award ceremony, breakup, graduation, my wedding, miscarriages, and everything in between. So, when it came time for me to give birth to my first baby, having my parents in the room wasn’t even a question. It’s common for mothers to have their moms in the delivery room, but I wanted my dad to be there too (if he wanted to be). He was there for everything else, why would I make him wait in the waiting room alone??

If you know anything about my dad, you know he has a heart of gold. He will go a hundred miles out of his way to help a complete stranger. He has such a servant’s heart and he is tremedously reliable under pressure. He is the life of any party and can make anyone feel at ease in any situation. Why wouldn’t I want that energy in the room when I bring my child into the world?

The second I went into labor the first words out of my mouth were “I need pineapple and watermelon, RIGHT NOW”! “Got it”, my dad said. He grabbed his keys and headed straight to the store, no questions asked. As I labored at home, my dad was there, ready to help. He stayed quiet and in the background, but ready for anything we would need.

As we left for the hospital with my parents right behind us. My poor dad, like a pack mule, bringing the snacks and my yoga ball! They stayed outside the room as we got settled and I had my first pelvic exam. A huge part of me is so sorry they had to hear me scream like that, oops. Anyway, as the labor continued, my parents were there with Will. Words cannot describe how thankful I was the they were there.

My labor intensified and Will needed a break from my crippling contractions and holding me up. My mom and dad took turns holding my hand and telling me to breathe. My dad got Will some food and brought some more snacks for the nurses, in true hero fashion. I watched his face twist in pain as I lie in labor, unable to handle the pain of my contractions any more. I could tell he wanted me to get the epidural. I could tell he wanted to take away the pain for me, but he kept his mouth closed and let me fight my fight.  I finally had to get the epidural and the room relaxed, especially Will and my dad.

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When It came time to push my dad stood back, sealing himself behind the my bed against a window in the back of the room. He stayed quiet while my mom took pictures and Will coached me through the pushing. Full disclosure, I forgot he was there. For hours, it was just Will and I bringing our child into the world.

The end of the story comes from my mom because I was too focused on Winnie. My mom says, when they placed Winnie on my chest she looked up at my dad. He was standing behind the chair with tears rolling down his face. For some reason, that surprised me. I knew it would be emotional for me, Will, and probably my mom, but I never thought my dad would cry! Then again, he has the biggest heart in the world.

Winnie’s birth story would have been incomplete without my dad in the delivery room. Her paw-paw got to see her enter this world and that is not a moment that could be replicated. I’m so thankful for everything my dad has done for me, and I’m even more thankful for the grandfather that he is to my daughter.

Happy Father’s Day, Dad! You are truly one of a kind.

 

 

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So, I’m not going back to work.

May 28, 2019

My whole life, I’ve known I wanted to be a teacher. Except for a brief delusional period in the 10th grade where I thought I wanted to be on SWAT, there was no other option for me. It was in my blood. It was something I knew my soul was called to do. It was my vocation. I was BORN to mold the minds of America’s future.

My first few years teaching, I poured everything I had into my kids and classroom. I came in early, stayed until dark, and spent my entire weekend in my classroom. I put every kid on an individualized plan, changed my door decorations every month, and created the cutest lessons you ever did see. My heart was so insanely full. My students were the first thing I thought about in the morning and the last thing I thought about before I feel asleep. I was constantly thinking of ways to teach a lesson or break through to a tough student. School was my whole life and I loved every second of it. The exhaustion of a long day and the sheer joy of a student who finally got the lesson was everything I needed.

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Even when I got pregnant, my feelings toward school didn’t change. I put my blood, sweat, and tears into my maternity sub plans to make sure my kiddos didn’t miss a beat.  I made plans to come back and hit the ground running to get those kids where they needed to be. All I could think about was getting back to the world I’d given my whole heart to.

Then, my baby was born. I felt every inch of my heart shift when that little girl was placed on my chest. Being home on maternity leave gave me so much fulfillment. Although it was terrifying, I thrived learning about my baby, giving her everything she needed, and being her mom. It filled my world like I never thought anything could. All of a sudden, I couldn’t imagine ever doing anything but being her mom.

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Going back to school wrecked me. Leaving her everyday was unbearable. Even though we adore her daycare, I would cry on my way to school knowing someone else got to love on her that day.

School was no longer my entire life. I got to school with the kids, left with the kids, and never came on the weekends. While I still worked my keister off for each of my students, my daughter was my number one priority. The guilt began to set in when I felt like I wasn’t giving my all to school or motherhood. My heart was torn by the two things that gave me my purpose in life. On the weekends, I couldn’t imagine going back to work and leaving my baby. At work, I couldn’t imagine leaving the classroom to be a mom full time. I was getting the feeling that something was going to have to give. Was I really being called to leave the classroom and stay home?

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The clarity came when I learned Daphne Grace was coming into the world. I realized that the pull to be a mom was something I couldn’t ignore anymore. I will still be a teacher, just not in the way I’d always been. I will still mold minds, just the ones I created. My vocation has shifted and I am so at peace with what that means for my life. I  fall asleep thinking of all the activities I will do with my girls. I now dream of teaching my own kids to read, create, and explore the world around them. The thought of teaching my girls brings me a kind of joy I’d never experienced. I’ve begun to see all the possibilities the vocation of  “Stay at Home Mom” has to offer.  To be honest, I was afraid of that title and a loss of identity. Something I’d feared became something I couldn’t wait to dive in to.

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I’m learning to accept and love all the changes that motherhood brings. Life changes so quickly and sometimes, and often times something you thought you were supposed to do forever gets overshadowed by something bigger than yourself. Teaching had been everything I’d ever wanted. I know, one day, I’ll be going back to the classroom. I love it too much to say a forever goodbye, but my little ones need everything I can give them. Being a mom  means making sacrifices, I knew that. However, I wasn’t ready for how much beauty those sacrifices can cultivate. Will and I both had incredible stay at home moms, and I can’t wait to follow in their footsteps.

**Now accepting all prayers and stay at home mom advice.